Saturday, November 12, 2011

Day 22

Weight: 172.8. No change. That seems like a miracle after my decadence last night. Maybe I need to put new batteries in the scale. No work today, yay Veterans! I slept awesome and am super happy to have a 3 day weekend in store for me.

I was planning to juice fast today, but there is an epic windstorm coming in and instead i feel like today is a good day for a soup fast. LOL. Plus I just got Heidi Swanson's Super Natural Every Day cookbook from the library and it seems like a good day for epic cooking. Sigh. How will I ever lose weight?

My skin has been breaking out this week and I really can't figure out why. Plus i've felt pretty emotional. I am no where near the end of my cycle, so i'm at a loss. Need to be more focused on washing face when i get home from work.

Set out to make two juices this morning, but still seriously dreaming of cooking soups and roasted vegetables. Plus I do need to clear out the fridge of veggies before I can shop again, so really I should cook a lot today. LOL.

Breakfast - Cranapple
2 cups cranberries - 3 apples - 1 carrot
So divinely good. Will be tough to settle for Oceanspray in the future. Half way through my bag of cranberries from costco and may buy more!

The green juice I made should be more interesting than usual - first off it had a touch of cranapple in it, then i tried out a little bell pepper and used melon instead of apple and it gave me some ideas for trying again with mojito juice, but right now i am super burnt out on juicing. that took forever.

I decided to finish up the mystery novel i'd been reading before doing anything else today. it's perfect for the windy weather. Though it was a good book, there was all sorts of dining and drinking in it. I finished it wanting a big glass of wine and some real food. I decide onion soup is a good compromise and set out to make it.

Lunch - onion soup, wine
The soup I made was super good, but I had a gut reaction to it that kept me busy in the bathroom the rest of the day. Sorry for the TMI, but this soup seems to be the secret for relieving slow elimination!!

I never end up having the juice I made this morning, but instead give into the pull of cooking projects. I make lentil soup and roasted root vegetables. Two of my top comfort foods. I also decide I desperately need some cheese in my life after the effect of the onion soup.

Dinner - grilled cheese, lentil soup, roasted roots, wine, beer.

Ok - so not the uber healthy juice fasting day I had planned, but it was relaxing and cozy. All that crankiness i've been carrying around really dissipated. The trick will be to have a healthier day tomorrow. I need to get some chores done!

Friday, November 11, 2011

Day 22

Weight: 172.8. No change. Did not sleep well as was fretting about wallet etc and have been in a truly bad mood all day. I really should not be in a bad mood. I can only think it's because my follow through hasn't been so good lately and i am not losing any more weight.

Breakfast - Acai Berry Juice

We got the amazing good news that some beautiful stranger turned in my husband's wallet to building management and he got it back with all the cash inside it. A total miracle, yet negative nelly that i am this morning is focused on dealing with all our canceled cards. I need to focus on how incredible it is that someone was so honest and awesome. We are very lucky and live in a beautiful place.

Other reasons I should be happier today. It's sunny and I got to see my husband for a quick tea and hug as he picked up his wallet from the building management office. A hug which i really needed. So really life is good. Need to take note of that.

Late morning snack - kashi granola bar

Exercise - 3 mile jog with friend. Beautiful sunny fall day. Tried to linger as long as i could outside.

Lunch - Punjab Eggplant from Trader Joes.
Super yum, simple eggplant tomato vegan curry.

Snack - co-worker brought around A-MAZ-ING chocolate. not vegan. so so good. i resisted having a second one. and that was big.

I received a promo code to start up my old CSA again and went for it. So excited. Kinda getting bored of the same old veggies. Plus they have some cool green grocer items that look awesome. Can't wait for first delivery.

After work, we were off to our wine club mixer. I was hesitant to go as it's been a busy week and both of us were pretty worn out from the wallet debacle. But if we don't go, it's difficult to pick up our club wine. Traffic was super light and we arrived early and were able to grab some hummus and watch a bit of the game before hand. I thought I was full when we arrived to the mixer, but I was obsessed with getting snacks there and not vegan ones. I can only chock it up to being tired and feeling a bit out of place there as the friends we'd invited couldn't make it as they are sick and under a lot of stress. Despite all that once we got home and were enjoying our shows, both of us were super hungry again. This odd eating is a problem. i am not getting enough veg and i don't feel full because of it. By this time, my cooking interests weren't too healthy either.

Dinner - hummus, pita, veg, fried okra, wine, two small pastries, lots of little squares of cheese, one cracker, 3 nuts, a few bites of chocolate, wine tasting, cheese quesadilla, tomato, green onion, fried egg

Yikes!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Day 21

Weight: 172.8. Too much bread yesterday. Slept super soundly. Daylight savings has made me want to hibernate and eat major carbs. Instead I managed to rally enough to shred.

Exercise - 30 day shred Level 1

A little bored of this workout, maybe need to get Ripped in 30 instead. The cats think working out is fun.

Breakfast - Green juice
spinach - celery - apple - cucumber - carrot - lemon - ginger

This maybe had too much spinach? It didn't sit that well with me.

Early morning snack - banana. This calmed my stomach considerably.

Really want to go read my book in front of the fireplace all day. Instead I turn on my blue light therapy box and hope for the best.

Early lunch - left over red cabbage, onion, and snow pea stirfry.
Delicious and comforting and loaded with purple antioxidants. Ridiculously hungry today. Felt better after eating this, but am still super hungry and desire hibernation.

Exercise - Met my friend for a 3 mile jog. It's sunny out and I feel much much better after the run than i had all morning.

Late Lunch - edamame with salt. Super yum.

Really have a craving to go buy some thick soup somewhere and wish i could have taken my cat to work. It's very cold and i need something warm for my lap.

Afternoon snack - coconut water. So good. But craving french fries anyway. What is up with cravings all day?

Afternoon disaster - husband loses wallet. We spend an hour canceling stuff and then hurry over to a friend's game night potluck empty handed as we couldn't really buy anything re: canceled cards. Fortunately, there was plenty of food and vegan options. We had a great evening and felt really happy we went.

Dinner - quinoa with garbanzos, asian slaw, crackers, bean salad, wine

After we returned home, i was starved and whipped us up a quick cheese quesadilla. Not vegan. Damn. It was good though. And i had been super hungry all day.

Late night snack - quesadilla

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Day 20

Weight: 171.8. Wow partial juice fast and exercise did the trick. Need to keep the exercise up.

I have the inevitable wine headache this morning. I wish i could think a little more about the next day when i make the choice to indulge. Feeling annoyed at myself, but at least it was a great evening out with my man. Sometimes I think it would be good for me to have children so i could move on from my moment to moment living. I am big on instant gratification and i pay for it later all the time. This diet has me so purified too that over-indulgences really pack a punch the next day compared to before.

Breakfast - Acai Berry Juice

Morning Snack - 1/2 cup blueberries

Today is our office charity tricycle race. I am racing in it, so I did a little PR work this morning to try to get fundraising up. Donations i earn will go to PAWS, my favorite charity. I'm riding in a little red riding owl costume with racing stripe shirt and pants. My coworker made an owl for me to wear on my back and I used PAWS efforts with owls to promote them.

Pre-race jitters - one chocolate

I won my first heat! Only because my co-worker fell of her tricycle, but hey. I lost in the second. I tried to plan ahead on how i could participate in the potluck without it ruining my efforts. I organized a vegan pizza purchase and 3 of my co-workers opted to eat it with me. So that was good. The hard part was skipping out on the desserts, made by our resident amazing baking enthusiast. I feel like i've gained some valuable experience in doing social events in a healthier way though. I have also managed to avoid eating dessert in the office maybe 7 or 8 times.

Lunch - two slices vegan pizza, salad

After work Husband had a work happy hour, so I went to read at a different one. I was very tempted to order french fries or butternut ravioli, but stayed the course and had beet salad and the hummus plate, but also had some wine... husband was still hungry when we got home and I needed to use up a bunch of spinach and other greens. So I made some juice and cooked greens. I felt like I really needed some protein too, so I fried eggs for us. Sigh. Not vegan, but better than cheese. We did some much needed chores around the house and I fell asleep in front of the TV.

Dinner - Beet salad, Hummus and Pita, Greens and Egg.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Day 19

Weight: 174. Wow. Cheat day really took away some of my progress. I am still struggling with elimination and feeling heavy as well. At least I slept decently and woke up feeling more alert than I had all week. It was no problem to stick to my one snooze rule and even got us out of bed to start doing the shred again.

Exercise - Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred Level 1.

Felt really good to do that, but it is a butt kicker - literally. I wouldn't say i've regressed entirely from the last time i did it, but it was not as easy as it had gotten for me a few months ago. Really need to keep it up as this may help stop my metabolism from collapsing and ski season is around the corner.

Last night, my husband helped me make two kinds of juice for juice fasting today. Let's hope it goes well! And let's hope it undoes some of the bad things from my transition.

Breakfast - usual juice with pea shoots
carrot - apple - lemon - ginger - romaine - cucumber - celery. Don't know if pea shoots will make a difference, but still had some left and wanted to use them up.

Late morning snack - cran-apple
1.5 cups cranberries - 1 carrot - 2 apples. Loved this. Can't wait to make this again.

Exercise - doubling up today
Met my friend for a run and we plowed through 4 miles in the windy rain. Feeling pretty alive.

Lunch - same juice from breakfast

Am finding my energy level is quite good today. My coworker thinks it is because of the egg i ate Sunday, but maybe it's the juice?

Snack - coconut water

Uff da, began to hit the wall around 3:30 when i noticed daylight savings time effects. I flipped on my light therapy device and drank a coconut water. I think i did this too early because as soon as my timer flipped off for the end of the light therapy treatment, i noticed the sun set right in my eyes. SIGH. had to keep the light on a little longer. And now i am sitting here in the dark and i want the light back on again. Hmm. Will take some practice to get this right. So now it's 4:40 in the afternoon, it's dark outside, and I'm super hungry. My mind immediately goes to monday night football at the movie theater and the delicious pizza i had saturday night. cravings are on overdrive. hmm. this is a tough one because on the one hand i feel i proved myself today - juice until sunset and two hard workouts, but on the other hand if i go get pizza i may be up in weight tomorrow despite all my good work today.

My husband and I came up with a compromise plan - we went to happy hour near where we needed to turn in our ballots. I had a naked green salad and the hummus plate with pita. Delicious! Next time i think i will hold the pita, but this was a good compromise. However, I had more than one glass of wine. Afterward we went up to the movie theater to finish watching the game and then we played pool, which i hadn't done in years. It was really super fun. Great evening.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Day 18

Weight: 172.6. No change. Very lucky considering how much i indulged yesterday. Am up early at usual work time, only it's an hour earlier re: time change. Have headache and no desire to do anything. Should really go back to bed. Am feeling really conflicted. Today should be the day I juice fast and get back on track, but I also really want to eat fried eggs and watch football with a nice red beer. How do i balance that?

I feel a little out of control as I keep giving into my instant gratification desires, but it's so nice to just have a fun weekend. I am only a pound up from my lowest weight right now. But really this whole last week has not gone well for me. I wish I could figure out where I went wrong - i think it's when our house stuff piled up and i felt like i hadn't had any fun in a long time. And possibly me thinking that it's juicing that ruined the plumbing. I wonder if i just finish my weekend of fun and then try to figure out a way to juice fast on monday? Maybe I can fall back asleep.

Early breakfast - Acai Berry Juice

Tried to sleep more. No dice. Have decided to enjoy today, but plan ahead for the week. Am really thinking problems have stemmed from plumbing and allowing alcohol. Going to be much more careful about that. Plumbing is fear of washing the juicer, plus have dishwasher back and haven't gotten in the swing of emptying and refilling it to have clean juicer.

Morning snack - granola bar
New kashi brand, have been really wanting one for over a week now. It was great. Not too sweet.

    Thinking ahead for the week:
  • Monday - 100% juice fast day, bring different juices to work, have juice for dinner. Run with linsey and walk to ballot drop box. Do not have any wine.

  • Tuesday - Tricycle race day. Juice for breakfast. Limit to one slice vegan pizza at the lunch.
    All vegetable dinner. Make juice tonight. Do not have any wine.

  • Wednesday - Game night. Juice for breakfast. Vegetable lunch. Run with Maggie. Go to TJs and bring all vegetable thing to potluck. Try to stick to it as best can with potluck dinner. Do not have any wine.

  • Thursday - wine mixer night. Juice for breakfast. Vegetable lunch. Run with Maggie. Bring veggie snack to mixer. Only have the wine offered at mixer, don't open bottle.

  • Friday - juice fast day. Run on the treadmill or shred.

We watched football and I did have a few indulgences of the food i've been craving. Mostly I laid around and felt a tad bored and very lethargic with some guilty feelings.

Brunch - Greens with white beans, onion, and garlic. Fried egg, Good Seed Bread, Morningstar veggie sausage. So satisfying to eat this. Red beer.

My husband rallied us to do our basic chore list and that was awesome. I'm feeling like i have to quit football. It's so disappointing to watch our crappy team and fantasy has been a bit disappointing as of late as well. i don't like how it makes me second guess all my decisions.

Late lunch - Husband had two grilled cheese on good seed bread, one swiss, one cheddar. I had slivers of each of these (SO decadent) and the remainder of the beans and greens

Dinner - Red cabbage, with snow peas, garlic, onion, and ginger. Arugula, spinach, tomato, avocado salad. Steam roasted artichoke. Red wine.

Summarizing the cheats: alcohol, small amounts of cheese and butter, fried egg. The semi ok but processed foods: veggie sausage, granola bar. The transitional foods: 1.5 slices whole grain bread, white beans.

Not the worst cheat day in the world, but was very lethargic and didn't really exercise beyond chores. I just hope that can sustain me as i try to follow my plan for the week.

Not the worst

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Day 17

Weight: 172.6. Up again. I knew it would be as i just feel heavier. Fun night with too much wine equals headache in AM.

We woke up at our work day time and have no plans until 11. Did we shred? No.
I read and he watched an english comedy show.

Breakfast - Acai Berry Juice

Around 10, we rallied and got chores done around the house. Husband winterized - got extra suet out, put the heater in the bird bath, cleaned off the deck and put the "foam nipples" on the faucets. LOL. I wonder if he switched out the nest box with the winter roost as well. I did the dishes. Somehow his list seems way more impressive than mine. I decided I better eat something before our friends picked us up.

Brunch - Greens mix steamed sauteed with onion, garlic, and apprx 1/2 cup of white beans. Delicious. Trying to follow South Beach diet rules with my transition foods, but that is shortly out the window as we decide to have a red beer with brunch. I feel better after. Sigh.

We had the very exciting experience of being picked up by a boat! Our friends have just gotten one and are still keeping it in town as they learn how to maneuver it. We drove down to the boat launch and learned a bit about what it takes to operate a boat ourselves. After a few attempts, we get launched and are underway. It's a gorgeous fall day, bright with autumn colors. Simply glorious. We had fun touring around the lake, seeing amazing houses, the football facility, the airplane facility, and many sea planes. Plus the wintering birds are here! we saw Western Grebes and Ringbill Gulls. Yay!

We had so much fun touring around and then headed over to the adjacent lake to a local restaurant with a boat dock. I have always wanted to boat to happy hour there and i finally did it! Yay for bucket list days!

Lunch - edamame, organic greens mix, tapenade, hummus, one pita. They had champagne available on happy hour, delicious and so fun for a great boating day!.

We got back to the launch and managed to get the boat back up on the trailer. It was so fun and I look forward to learning more about boating. We may get to go on some overnight trips!

Once we got home, I felt a little restless. I didn't want to just cook and clean per usual. We flipped a coin and it landed on go out. So we headed over to the dinner movie theater near our house and saw Tower Heist. It was pretty fun, but not an excellent movie. I ordered the vegetarian pizza and asked for no cheese and had some more wine. Unfortunately, my pizza came with cheese and i couldn't really do anything about it in the dark movie theater, so I just ate it. Oh my god it was good. I really should have only eaten half of this pizza, but i just straight up devoured it. Wow.

Dinner - thin crust pizza with sun dried tomatoes, artichokes, spinach, garlic, and goat cheese.

So how did i do? Well i did not do the shred, but i was at least active. I did not stay vegan, but that wasn't totally my fault. I did not follow the south beach rules and had way too many portions of refined grain (pita and pizza dough - and a beer). I had too much to drink as well. Sigh. This is my biggest problem in dieting - balancing fun times and healthy choices. On the plus side I had two good servings of beans and two good servings of greens.